Life

is unpredictable

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All ABOUT ME.
Me? HAHA! Jus a simple and normal guy called Bryan. Life is jus unpredictable. To me, every second, every minute, every hour, everyday are realy important to me. I do not know when my journey will end but I hope I could keep all my memories in this blog.

Happy Valentine Day! This year can celebrate with you. I am happy. Because I know I not alone.
Thank You. Really.

Last Night, Prota knew about me. He must be shock, cant believed. This news to him, seen so hard to accept it. This same goes to Ting. Both of you must be really sad uh. Someone that are close to you, might just gone one day. I cant imagine that day. I am really scared. Scared this day will happen. I know both of u will feel sad about it. But I more worry about her.

After smsing Prota around 4plus am, I think I did not sleep. I keep thinking, thinking here and there. I never wanted u to shed a tear for me. But ytd, u said u cried. I felt so heartache. I think my tears also dropped. I felt stuck. I do not know what should I do. What should I do that is best for u ? What should I do that u wun feel hurt. I felt so helpless.

I am really sorry. I drag u down. Ur life had been sad and hurt. But my appear doest make any changes to your life. I guess it only make it worse. Is it really fate that bring us together? How I wish u never know me. I dun wan u to be mika. Never. That movie make me cried. It just a movie can make someone cried. Then what if in real life? Sigh. I know I must live long.

Whole night, I just think of these. Think of leaving u now. But I cant. I dun bear to leave you. I cant lose you. You meant so much to me . U r so important to me. I afraid being alone. I such a selfish and bad guy. Then, I realise the sky had became brighter.

Everyday, I dun wish to wake up. I afraid that day something might just happen. Afraid I will faint, afraid bad news will come. Living in fear everyday. But now, I wish morning could come fast. Because, the next morning I will able to talk to you.

Last time, I ask god to take me away as early as possible. Because I don't find a reason to live on.

Now, "God, Please let me live as long as possible. "  She, my family and friends really meant a lot to me. I want to cherish them. I wan stay longer with them. I really dun wan leave them.