Life

is unpredictable

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All ABOUT ME.
Me? HAHA! Jus a simple and normal guy called Bryan. Life is jus unpredictable. To me, every second, every minute, every hour, everyday are realy important to me. I do not know when my journey will end but I hope I could keep all my memories in this blog.

有一天，心问眼睛：“如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
眼睛说：“我会哭，哭红哭肿，直到把眼泪流干。”
眼睛问鼻子：“如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
鼻子说：“你哭的时候，我也和你一起难过，我感觉酸酸的。直到你哭完，我才能痊愈。”
鼻子问耳朵：“如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
耳朵说：“我可以听悲伤的歌曲，也可以听朋友的劝告与鼓励。”
耳朵问嘴巴：“如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
嘴巴说：“我的办法最多，我可以吃好多好吃的东西，也可以拒绝吃任何东西；我可以用烟酒来麻醉自己。”
嘴巴又问心：“为什么要问这个问题呢？那么如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
心说：“因为我现在很难过，可是，我除了疼，没有别的办法忘记难过。”

Time passed so fast uh... It been One Month we have our wedding. Still remember I told you that I might not able have wedding with you. You seem a little disappointed. Haha. Now our Ring are at Saffron. Soon we will reach Cuphea. And promise will reach your dream ring together. :D

We will last long together. I Love You.

He come find you, talk to you or what.
I will get used to it and numb to it.
But my love for you, will never change.

Ytd, I dunno whats going on with me and it just happened.

You told me you are alone outside.

I worried. You are alone.
I worried. For your safety.
I worried. Will you get cold.
I worried. Have you reach home sound and safe.

But why do I have to worry so much? Since you have him with you.

I do not why I am feeling like this. I hate to have this feeling. Is it because I love you too much that jealous? Or is it because I knew I cant do this to you?

I found myself so contradict. I wanted you to love someone if you can. But somehow I could not allow. I felt so pain. But I realise if those pain I had, could let you have happiness. I will learn to numb those pain.

That night, my mind went up and down. Think here and there. I felt my heart so pain. I felt my eyes wet. Lying on my bed, I tossed left and right. I sit up. I still cant get back to myself. Intend to go to fridge, took a cans of it and just drunk myself. But I told myself, I cant. I promised you not to touch. I held on till you msg me. Found out you have reach home. Wanted to ignore your msg but I could not. I could not bring myself to do that.

Bryan. I know you have a hard time. I know how you feel. Trust me hao ma, no matter how you are, what you can give me now or in future it doest matter. Love is giving unconditionally without anything in return. Since I 've fallen for you, I 'll love you with eternity. I just need you in my life. Wo zhen de ai shang ni le. Jiu shi ai ni ai zhe ni. Wo men de tong hua gu shi will come true. Ting always love bryan with all her heart.

Your msg bring Bryan back.

苦中一点甜

I will not give up.
I will live on for you.

I still feels Afraid.  我怕，很怕， 非常怕。

小女生对男孩子说“如果哪一天我不给你发信息了你睡的着吗”，男孩子哈哈说“怎么睡不着，我可以看以前的啊。”“那手机丢了呢？”“那也无所谓，我都记在心里啊。”

在虚拟的世界，曾告诉自己不能有感情。
可是我遇见她， 爱上她。

每一天，我更爱她，更想她。
我习惯有她的日子，习惯有她的简讯，习惯她对我的照顾。
我的心情会跟着她，我的快乐就是她幸福。
她在难过，在哭泣。
我无法安慰，无法给她一个拥抱。 我什么也帮不了。
只能默默的知道她在伤心，我的心也好难受。

也许有一天我们能在现实相遇，但能在虚拟的世界认识你，已经够了。

对不起，我走进你的世界。
对不起，我伤害你。
对不起，让你对我有感情。
对不起。。。

你又在哭泣，我给不了安慰。

好无奈，很无奈。我只能知道你在哭...

Nothing I could do for You... I Hate Myself.

Love this year Birthday. I really enjoy it.

Thanks Ting. Your appearance make this year birthday so different. Thanks for your surprise and gift for me. You are the first one to wish me. First one to pei me welcome my birthday. Every year also wish you will be here with me. I really love your gift. You really made my day :D

But was kind of sad because I let my parents wait for me whole night. I felt so sorry. But today going to blow the cake. Thanks Mum and Dad for raising me, till now your never give up on me. I will take care of myself and live on. And sis! Thanks for your wallet! Frens! I love your birthday card, cash present and cake.

Thanks Ting and Everyone. Love you guys~

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything


I will never leave you. You really meant so much to me.

Happy Valentine Day! This year can celebrate with you. I am happy. Because I know I not alone.
Thank You. Really.

Last Night, Prota knew about me. He must be shock, cant believed. This news to him, seen so hard to accept it. This same goes to Ting. Both of you must be really sad uh. Someone that are close to you, might just gone one day. I cant imagine that day. I am really scared. Scared this day will happen. I know both of u will feel sad about it. But I more worry about her.

After smsing Prota around 4plus am, I think I did not sleep. I keep thinking, thinking here and there. I never wanted u to shed a tear for me. But ytd, u said u cried. I felt so heartache. I think my tears also dropped. I felt stuck. I do not know what should I do. What should I do that is best for u ? What should I do that u wun feel hurt. I felt so helpless.

I am really sorry. I drag u down. Ur life had been sad and hurt. But my appear doest make any changes to your life. I guess it only make it worse. Is it really fate that bring us together? How I wish u never know me. I dun wan u to be mika. Never. That movie make me cried. It just a movie can make someone cried. Then what if in real life? Sigh. I know I must live long.

Whole night, I just think of these. Think of leaving u now. But I cant. I dun bear to leave you. I cant lose you. You meant so much to me . U r so important to me. I afraid being alone. I such a selfish and bad guy. Then, I realise the sky had became brighter.

Everyday, I dun wish to wake up. I afraid that day something might just happen. Afraid I will faint, afraid bad news will come. Living in fear everyday. But now, I wish morning could come fast. Because, the next morning I will able to talk to you.

Last time, I ask god to take me away as early as possible. Because I don't find a reason to live on.

Now, "God, Please let me live as long as possible. "  She, my family and friends really meant a lot to me. I want to cherish them. I wan stay longer with them. I really dun wan leave them.

 10Jan , the day Bryan meet Ting.

10Jan, the day Bryan couple with Ting.

10Jan, our story begin.

It will continue and fill with beautiful memories.

Happy One Month Anniversary! I Love You.

Sigh.

Today a knife just stabbed straight into my heart after I heard those words. My heart became so numb, so pain. I feel like crying out but I had to control it.

It so hurt...

So scared you will leave me. Leave me alone. My life will back to darkness.

Is going 2am and few more hours going off to Genting.

I will miss you. T.T

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.