Life

is unpredictable

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All ABOUT ME.
Me? HAHA! Jus a simple and normal guy called Bryan. Life is jus unpredictable. To me, every second, every minute, every hour, everyday are realy important to me. I do not know when my journey will end but I hope I could keep all my memories in this blog.

10/01/2011 the day we knew each other and couple.
24/01/2011 the day we have our wedding in audi.

24/05/2011 the day of the story end....
4 month not too long yet not too short. 4 month of memories.
You and the Memories will never be forgotten.
Always deep some where in my heart and mind.

Please take good care of yourself.
Remember to eat your meal on time.
Remember to sleep more and sleep well.
Remember to drink lots of Plain Water.
When you cant breathe well or ribcage pain, take a rest.

I could not be the one taking care of you anymore.
But I will pray that someone will stop by you and pamper you.
Life always go up and down.
I know you will be able to go through all the obstacles.
I only want you to be happy, as happy as you can.
Smile as much as you can
I guess I'm being too long winded le bah?
But I wun have anymore chance.

Thanks for your everything.
Your love and your care.
I know I will regret not holding you tight to my side
I know I will miss you.
I will be looking at your picture, looking up the sky and searching the star.
People will think I am Crazy or Stupid.
But it doesn't matters, cause I really love you, and it's not a lie.
Loving you, I have no regrets, no pauses, no grudges.

It a failure of me not letting you to see me.
Not letting you to take care of me and be my side.
I hurt you more than giving u happiness
Is must be a torture to love me.

I know tmr onwards you wun be here anymore.
I want to run away from reality and trying not to remember.
But the feelings was so deep that I can't stop thinking or stop shedding my tears.
I have lost the key to my heart le and you are locked inside.
Ppl always say time will heal everything, but even if it does, scars will be left behind.

But, I must tell myself, you will never be there again le.

Baby, I am sorry but I love you.

Black Friday? Dun really believe at all, but today i tend to believe it. A lot of things happen...

Woke up this morning, I sat on the sofa thinking. Had a strong feeling that you will recevied the cookies today.What if you really recevied? I guess it wun mail to your house, the letter should have gone.

On the way to school, tears keep wanted to drop down. I keep holding it. I don't know what answer you will give me even though i know it will be the same. I am seriously suck. How many times had I rejected you. How many time had I make you tired of everything. How many time had I make you hurt. What so difficult for me? I don't know. I always afraid stepping forward to you.

When heard you said you don't want me, you don't want call or sms me. Miserable. First time ever felt this. Tonight will be the last we will be sms or calling.Tmr onwards, we had to live our own life. I don't know tmr will be what day to me. Is hard for me to forget u and stop thinking of you.

"Will you be okay? Will you able to sleep well and eat well? Will you take care yourself?"

Was shock when I heard u recevied the cookies. I don't know is a good news or bad news I am glad to heard that. At least my effort, my heart for making the cookies did not went down. Yet, Why has it to be today? Why did you recevied Today? And not yesterday?

I went to your block. I don't know why I went there. I walk around your block and your block aread. Looking around and those void deck. Thinking of time you siting there to study for your exams while u smsing me. I sit there very long until knowing you are at your block. What should I do? Meet u? Run away? Hide? My heart keep beat, never ever felt so scared of. I am a jerk right? So close yet so far. Just a step and we could just.... I am sorry for a sudden coming down to your block. Yeah. I am wrong for coming down without seeing you. But I manage to see your back when i was in the taxi. I cried seeing you turning ur head left and right finding for me. You sure have hate me. HATE ME TTM

I Miss You Badly...
I really love you. Hen ai hen ai zhe ni

You said even if you are crying, nothing will change
You said even if your gone, nothing will change
But why are you crying?
Why are you closing your eyes as if this is the end?
Everything is in the past, now smile. My baby.


Even though many people would leave you
This song will stay with you forever
Even if many friends will leave you
I'll continue to stand by your side

Baby don't cry, baby don't cry, baby don't cry
Someday you will surely shine, give me your smile
Baby don't cry, baby don't cry, baby don't cry
One more time, just give me your smile

Just give me your smile