My Memories

The End of the Story...

2011-05-24T09:01:00.000+08:00

10/01/2011 the day we knew each other and couple.
24/01/2011 the day we have our wedding in audi.

24/05/2011 the day of the story end....
4 month not too long yet not too short. 4 month of memories.
You and the Memories will never be forgotten.
Always deep some where in my heart and mind.

Please take good care of yourself.
Remember to eat your meal on time.
Remember to sleep more and sleep well.
Remember to drink lots of Plain Water.
When you cant breathe well or ribcage pain, take a rest.

I could not be the one taking care of you anymore.
But I will pray that someone will stop by you and pamper you.
Life always go up and down.
I know you will be able to go through all the obstacles.
I only want you to be happy, as happy as you can.
Smile as much as you can
I guess I'm being too long winded le bah?
But I wun have anymore chance.

Thanks for your everything.
Your love and your care.
I know I will regret not holding you tight to my side
I know I will miss you.
I will be looking at your picture, looking up the sky and searching the star.
People will think I am Crazy or Stupid.
But it doesn't matters, cause I really love you, and it's not a lie.
Loving you, I have no regrets, no pauses, no grudges.

It a failure of me not letting you to see me.
Not letting you to take care of me and be my side.
I hurt you more than giving u happiness
Is must be a torture to love me.

I know tmr onwards you wun be here anymore.
I want to run away from reality and trying not to remember.
But the feelings was so deep that I can't stop thinking or stop shedding my tears.
I have lost the key to my heart le and you are locked inside.
Ppl always say time will heal everything, but even if it does, scars will be left behind.

But, I must tell myself, you will never be there again le.

Baby, I am sorry but I love you.

Black Friday 13th~

2011-05-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

Black Friday? Dun really believe at all, but today i tend to believe it. A lot of things happen...

Woke up this morning, I sat on the sofa thinking. Had a strong feeling that you will recevied the cookies today.What if you really recevied? I guess it wun mail to your house, the letter should have gone.

On the way to school, tears keep wanted to drop down. I keep holding it. I don't know what answer you will give me even though i know it will be the same. I am seriously suck. How many times had I rejected you. How many time had I make you tired of everything. How many time had I make you hurt. What so difficult for me? I don't know. I always afraid stepping forward to you.

When heard you said you don't want me, you don't want call or sms me. Miserable. First time ever felt this. Tonight will be the last we will be sms or calling.Tmr onwards, we had to live our own life. I don't know tmr will be what day to me. Is hard for me to forget u and stop thinking of you.

"Will you be okay? Will you able to sleep well and eat well? Will you take care yourself?"

Was shock when I heard u recevied the cookies. I don't know is a good news or bad news I am glad to heard that. At least my effort, my heart for making the cookies did not went down. Yet, Why has it to be today? Why did you recevied Today? And not yesterday?

I went to your block. I don't know why I went there. I walk around your block and your block aread. Looking around and those void deck. Thinking of time you siting there to study for your exams while u smsing me. I sit there very long until knowing you are at your block. What should I do? Meet u? Run away? Hide? My heart keep beat, never ever felt so scared of. I am a jerk right? So close yet so far. Just a step and we could just.... I am sorry for a sudden coming down to your block. Yeah. I am wrong for coming down without seeing you. But I manage to see your back when i was in the taxi. I cried seeing you turning ur head left and right finding for me. You sure have hate me. HATE ME TTM

I Miss You Badly...
I really love you. Hen ai hen ai zhe ni

Baby Don't Cry

2011-05-01T16:47:00.001+08:00

You said even if you are crying, nothing will change
You said even if your gone, nothing will change
But why are you crying?
Why are you closing your eyes as if this is the end?
Everything is in the past, now smile. My baby.

Even though many people would leave you
This song will stay with you forever
Even if many friends will leave you
I'll continue to stand by your side

Baby don't cry, baby don't cry, baby don't cry
Someday you will surely shine, give me your smile
Baby don't cry, baby don't cry, baby don't cry
One more time, just give me your smile

Just give me your smile

Happy Birthday! ♥

2011-04-27T00:48:00.000+08:00

Today is my baby 20th Birthday! First time celebrate with her. I felt sorry to her. I could not be your side. But, hope you will like the present, letter and birthday song I sang to you. Though I knew is not nice at all.

I believed you will enjoy your this year birthday, think you have a lots fun. Guess you have eaten 4 cake? Haha! 2x of my birthday cake I had this year. You are really silly. Sha gua! Your wish should wish for urself!

See you happy for ur birthday, I am happy for you too.

Happy Birthday Teresa

You ♥

2011-04-26T22:28:00.001+08:00

Tell me Tell me, tell me about love
Tell me Tell me, share your love with me
Love me Love me, let me hug you
Kiss me Kiss me, I only love you

I'm a fool when u smile, you're like a pretty doll when I look at you
My heart beats so fast. My everyday becomes happy because of you

I want you oh my love, please look at only me
Even when the world changes, I love only you
Oh my love, my heart beats whenever I see you. I'll cherish only you

(L.O.V.E GIRL) Hold my hand and Fly
(L.O.V.E GIRL) Trust me and Fly high

(L.O.V.E BOY) Yes, we fly to the sky
(L.O.V.E BOY) I want to take you there baby

Tell you Tell you, I'll tell you about love
Tell you Tell you, I love you
Love you Love you, hold my hands
Kiss you Kiss you, I love you forever

Like a music you play for me, like a sweet hum you sing for me
Each minute, each second becomes so precious.
I want to hear it everyday, I love, love, love you

I want you oh my love
Please love only me. Because even when other loves change, I love you
Oh my love, my small heart that pictured you. I'll always hug only you.

(L.O.V.E GIRL) Take Take Take my hands
(L.O.V.E GIRL) Uh uh Grab Grab Grab my hands

(L.O.V.E BOY) Yeah yeah. Yes, we can fly to the sky high high
(L.O.V.E BOY) I want to take you there baby

(L.O.V.E GIRL) Take Take Take my hands baby
you know what I want you

(L.O.V.E GIRL) Can you hear my beating heart?
can you feel my beat

(L.O.V.E BOY) Take Take Take my hands baby
you know what I want you

(L.O.V.E BOY) I can't live without you, only you can make me laugh, you make me laugh

L.O.V.E GIRL

Our Ring!

2011-04-20T17:02:00.000+08:00

Remember To Tell Me..

2011-04-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

亲爱的，
如果有一天，你对我说，你爱上了别人…
我会流着泪，
笑着对你说 ‘分手’ …

因为我爱你，所以我知道强求的爱得不到任何结果…
因为我爱你，所以我会毫不犹豫的放开你的手…
因为我爱你，所以我希望你能够得到你想要的幸福…
因为我爱你，所以当你转身离去时，我会流着泪，给你最真诚的祝福…
因为我爱你，所以我谢谢你给了我一次爱的机会…
因为我爱你，所以我深深的明白
爱，是一感受，即使痛苦，都会觉得幸福…
爱，是一种体会，即使心碎，都会觉得甜蜜…爱，是一种经历，即使破碎，都会觉得美丽…

If one day you had love someone. You are with him. Remember to tell me . I just want to know.

Down. Down. Down

2011-03-31T21:31:00.000+08:00

Tonight the time seem to be pass slow. I wondered why. I realised because you are not beside me. Wanted to reply you. But I hesitate. Thinking back of the words we just said. My heart sank.

Maybe you do not want to talk to me. Maybe there are other guys to talk to. Maybe you don't look forward to see my name coming in to your phone.

But I felt so empty. So miss u. I really want to talk to you. I force myself to read a book. Listen to music. Hope I can focus on other stuff. But not a while. I think of you. My heart ache. Tears seem to drop anytime. I lie down and look up the ceiling. Thinking. " What are you doing?" It been an hour plus I never give u a reply. " Are you looking your phone checking have I message you? Are you missing me? Or none of the above."

I read back those messages that you sent to me. So miss. So miss. Sigh.

I fly so high but my wings disappeared and I just drop down.

" Bryan. Why are you always think of yourself? Thinking that you are only one shang xin. How about Ting? Have you ever stand in her shoes and think? Do you even figure out why she react this to you? Do you know what have you did to her? Yes. You hurt her. What she want for, you can't give to her. She had stared to get used to it. No matter how Ting give in to you. You always hurt her. Not once. Not twice. You know yourself clearly what she want for. You deserve what you are having now. You deserve what Ting is treating to you now. You are sad. So do Ting is. You are always selfish. You can't blame her or anyone. Blame yourself. "

2011-03-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

If I don't contact you first,
I'm afraid of missing you.
If my love for you gets any deeper,
it will only result in getting hurt.
It's true that my fear are filling my mind.

Praying with all my heart...
The person I'm yearning for...
I believe that person is you.

I'm in love.
I'll fall in love
Never feel any more fear,
as long as I'm with you.

I thought,
I'm never gonna fall in love.
But, I'm in love.
cause I wana love you, baby.

You're the only thing on my mind all day.
I can be your good lover.
Wana be your four-leaf clover.

Please, you 've gotta believe me.
Make you never gonna leave me.
I won't be supicious. I'll trust you.

The world is so beautiful.
You are so beautiful.

Those are some part of lyrics from a song. But it so meaningful and I wana to tell you.
Please don't feel I dw you. Please don't feel afraid.
I will always by your side.
I Love You.

2011-03-04T23:32:00.001+08:00

如果我总缠着你、
请不要说我很烦、
请不要对我生气、

因为我真的很珍惜和你的每分每秒。

哪怕明明相隔两地、
哪怕只是在电话中相聚、
因为在乎每一次小小意义上的分离。

如果我不会总缠着你，
请不要以为我舍得和你说再见了。
你不懂我那一瞬间的失落，
是多么想伸出手去抓住你。

你要明白正是为了爱，
才悄悄的收起对你的依赖
也许有一天我们都会埋怨，
也许有一天我们都会犯错，
也许有一天我们都会忽视今天的诺言，
也许有一天我们也会吵架……

我们来做个约定好吗？
约好即使吵架也不可以不发简讯，
约好即使吵架也不可以不好好照顾自己，
约好即使吵架也不可以轻易说分手，
约好即使吵架也不可以伤害自己，
约好即使吵架也不可以错过了……

约好，吵架的时候告诉自己：

错误是短暂的，错过却是永远遗憾的……

爱情，有时候很脆弱，
脆弱到容不下一点点沙。

爱情，有时候很顽强，
顽强到什么也分不开相爱的人。

如果有一天，我们不再任性的不理会一切；
如果有一天，我们不再要求时时都粘在一起；
如果有一天，我们不再傻傻的看着对方微笑；
如果有一天，我们不再不理会柴米油盐；
如果有一天，我们不再是任性的两个小孩；
如果有一天，我们习惯了彼此埋怨……

请不要说“分手吧！”

因为这一天更应该说 “让我照顾你一辈子”

2011-02-25T01:09:00.000+08:00

有一天，心问眼睛：“如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
眼睛说：“我会哭，哭红哭肿，直到把眼泪流干。”
眼睛问鼻子：“如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
鼻子说：“你哭的时候，我也和你一起难过，我感觉酸酸的。直到你哭完，我才能痊愈。”
鼻子问耳朵：“如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
耳朵说：“我可以听悲伤的歌曲，也可以听朋友的劝告与鼓励。”
耳朵问嘴巴：“如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
嘴巴说：“我的办法最多，我可以吃好多好吃的东西，也可以拒绝吃任何东西；我可以用烟酒来麻醉自己。”
嘴巴又问心：“为什么要问这个问题呢？那么如果你难过，你会怎么办？”
心说：“因为我现在很难过，可是，我除了疼，没有别的办法忘记难过。”

One Month!

2011-02-24T14:23:00.001+08:00

Time passed so fast uh... It been One Month we have our wedding. Still remember I told you that I might not able have wedding with you. You seem a little disappointed. Haha. Now our Ring are at Saffron. Soon we will reach Cuphea. And promise will reach your dream ring together. :D

We will last long together. I Love You.

Sigh~

2011-02-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

He come find you, talk to you or what.
I will get used to it and numb to it.
But my love for you, will never change.

It just happened...

2011-02-22T22:29:00.001+08:00

Ytd, I dunno whats going on with me and it just happened.

You told me you are alone outside.

I worried. You are alone.
I worried. For your safety.
I worried. Will you get cold.
I worried. Have you reach home sound and safe.

But why do I have to worry so much? Since you have him with you.

I do not why I am feeling like this. I hate to have this feeling. Is it because I love you too much that jealous? Or is it because I knew I cant do this to you?

I found myself so contradict. I wanted you to love someone if you can. But somehow I could not allow. I felt so pain. But I realise if those pain I had, could let you have happiness. I will learn to numb those pain.

That night, my mind went up and down. Think here and there. I felt my heart so pain. I felt my eyes wet. Lying on my bed, I tossed left and right. I sit up. I still cant get back to myself. Intend to go to fridge, took a cans of it and just drunk myself. But I told myself, I cant. I promised you not to touch. I held on till you msg me. Found out you have reach home. Wanted to ignore your msg but I could not. I could not bring myself to do that.

Bryan. I know you have a hard time. I know how you feel. Trust me hao ma, no matter how you are, what you can give me now or in future it doest matter. Love is giving unconditionally without anything in return. Since I 've fallen for you, I 'll love you with eternity. I just need you in my life. Wo zhen de ai shang ni le. Jiu shi ai ni ai zhe ni. Wo men de tong hua gu shi will come true. Ting always love bryan with all her heart.

Your msg bring Bryan back.

I will not give up

2011-02-21T22:30:00.001+08:00

苦中一点甜

I will not give up.
I will live on for you.

2011-02-21T00:46:00.002+08:00

I still feels Afraid. 我怕，很怕，非常怕。

2011-02-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

小女生对男孩子说“如果哪一天我不给你发信息了你睡的着吗”，男孩子哈哈说“怎么睡不着，我可以看以前的啊。”“那手机丢了呢？”“那也无所谓，我都记在心里啊。”

If my Reality can exhange with Virtual

2011-02-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

在虚拟的世界，曾告诉自己不能有感情。
可是我遇见她，爱上她。

每一天，我更爱她，更想她。
我习惯有她的日子，习惯有她的简讯，习惯她对我的照顾。
我的心情会跟着她，我的快乐就是她幸福。
她在难过，在哭泣。
我无法安慰，无法给她一个拥抱。我什么也帮不了。
只能默默的知道她在伤心，我的心也好难受。

也许有一天我们能在现实相遇，但能在虚拟的世界认识你，已经够了。

对不起，我走进你的世界。
对不起，我伤害你。
对不起，让你对我有感情。
对不起。。。

I Hate Myself

2011-02-19T00:27:00.003+08:00

你又在哭泣，我给不了安慰。

好无奈，很无奈。我只能知道你在哭...

Nothing I could do for You... I Hate Myself.

Happy Birthday Bryan!

2011-02-17T15:30:00.001+08:00

Love this year Birthday. I really enjoy it.

Thanks Ting. Your appearance make this year birthday so different. Thanks for your surprise and gift for me. You are the first one to wish me. First one to pei me welcome my birthday. Every year also wish you will be here with me. I really love your gift. You really made my day :D

But was kind of sad because I let my parents wait for me whole night. I felt so sorry. But today going to blow the cake. Thanks Mum and Dad for raising me, till now your never give up on me. I will take care of myself and live on. And sis! Thanks for your wallet! Frens! I love your birthday card, cash present and cake.

Thanks Ting and Everyone. Love you guys~

You are Important to Me~

2011-02-16T15:29:00.001+08:00

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything

I will never leave you. You really meant so much to me.

Happy Valentine Day~

2011-02-14T14:32:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine Day! This year can celebrate with you. I am happy. Because I know I not alone.
Thank You. Really.

Last Night, Prota knew about me. He must be shock, cant believed. This news to him, seen so hard to accept it. This same goes to Ting. Both of you must be really sad uh. Someone that are close to you, might just gone one day. I cant imagine that day. I am really scared. Scared this day will happen. I know both of u will feel sad about it. But I more worry about her.

After smsing Prota around 4plus am, I think I did not sleep. I keep thinking, thinking here and there. I never wanted u to shed a tear for me. But ytd, u said u cried. I felt so heartache. I think my tears also dropped. I felt stuck. I do not know what should I do. What should I do that is best for u ? What should I do that u wun feel hurt. I felt so helpless.

I am really sorry. I drag u down. Ur life had been sad and hurt. But my appear doest make any changes to your life. I guess it only make it worse. Is it really fate that bring us together? How I wish u never know me. I dun wan u to be mika. Never. That movie make me cried. It just a movie can make someone cried. Then what if in real life? Sigh. I know I must live long.

Whole night, I just think of these. Think of leaving u now. But I cant. I dun bear to leave you. I cant lose you. You meant so much to me . U r so important to me. I afraid being alone. I such a selfish and bad guy. Then, I realise the sky had became brighter.

Everyday, I dun wish to wake up. I afraid that day something might just happen. Afraid I will faint, afraid bad news will come. Living in fear everyday. But now, I wish morning could come fast. Because, the next morning I will able to talk to you.

Last time, I ask god to take me away as early as possible. Because I don't find a reason to live on.

Now, "God, Please let me live as long as possible. " She, my family and friends really meant a lot to me. I want to cherish them. I wan stay longer with them. I really dun wan leave them.

Happy One Month Anniversary!

2011-02-10T00:00:00.014+08:00

10Jan , the day Bryan meet Ting.

10Jan, the day Bryan couple with Ting.

10Jan, our story begin.

It will continue and fill with beautiful memories.

Happy One Month Anniversary! I Love You.

2011-02-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

Sigh.

Bryan is dead.

2011-02-04T00:50:00.003+08:00

Today a knife just stabbed straight into my heart after I heard those words. My heart became so numb, so pain. I feel like crying out but I had to control it.

It so hurt...

So scared you will leave me. Leave me alone. My life will back to darkness.

Late Night~

2011-02-01T01:53:00.000+08:00

Is going 2am and few more hours going off to Genting.

I will miss you. T.T

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.

How do we know each other?

2011-01-31T15:26:00.000+08:00

Haha.You see the title and will be wondering why I am posting this uh. Well, I am easily to forget stuff so I want to write this down. In case one day, when I think back how do I know you. I should be able to find out.

How do we know each other? Mmm..

It was Monday. I went to my sun nu which is juan room. Suddenly, you and rion came in to the room. I was wondering what makes your to come in. If not wrong, that room was just for chatting. When I first saw you, I thought. Oh you two are a couple. But you don't have the ring, I check at your information then realise you are single. I still puzzled why you two wearing the same. Haha. After that I never bother much. I think we are helping someone doing story. But during the game, we did not talk at all. After a few round, I just leave the room.

Looking around and finding for room to play. I saw your name at lobby user list. I do not know why I am actually looking to see you at which room. I never think much and just went in the room. Yet, you are not in that room. But later you came in.

And it just started from that room. I still remember after you added me. You asked me a lot question. Haha. Why uh? Or just want to know me more?

After playing with you, I think I somehow have some feelings on you. When heard your friend are helping you to find couple. I think I am a bit sad? HaHa. So I thought maybe we are just fated to be friend.

When your friend ask me to couple you, I thought he was just joking. I never took it seriously. Now think back, how do we become a couple? Did I ask for it or it was you?

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.

You are worth for me.

2011-01-31T13:04:00.001+08:00

Dun say sorry, dun feel guilty.

Not matter how tired I am, how sleepy I am. I will still wait for u. Even if I have to wait long for you. Doesn't matter. Really. 因为等待也是幸福的。

Lie to you is do not want you to worry me, lie to you so that I could pei u longer. Reason for this is just simple: You are worth for me.

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.

Sleepy! x.x

2011-01-30T23:41:00.003+08:00

The time now haven 12am but I already could feel my eyes are closing. Sleepy! Think I do not have enough sleep. Not enough sleep means headache is going to find me soon. Haha! Headache miss me uh..

Knowing that you are getting better, I felt relieved and happy for you. I kind of shock when I heard u always been sad. Maybe god should let me know you early, however I think is enough le. At least I know you now. Hope everyday with you, you will start to get happy day by day. Though nothing much I could do for you. But I will always be there with you when you needed me.

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.

Sunday is going end soon...

2011-01-30T22:41:00.001+08:00

Normally Sunday I will be staying home but I went down to Grandpa house. Eh. Actually there is a reason for it. Recently, I dream of my Grandma. I somehow remember I brought new clothes for her and trying to help her wear. However, I woke up from the dream and it just ended at there. I told everything to my Mum and asked her is it Grandma asking me to buy clothes for her? Mum asked why only Grandma came to find you? Haha! I also feel weird. Mum say when I was young, I was taken care by her. Well, Mum say I should go down, pray and burnt her clothes. Perhaps she needs it.

Sigh. Today weather seriously... It just rain the whole day and I can't burnt for her. I feel sad. Perhaps she really need clothes. And now have to wait till 清明节. But I guess after CNY, I will go down and burnt for her. I do not want her to wait and hope she can forgive for not burning today. It might look so absurd because it just a dream. I think I would rather believed it.

This is the 4th post for this blog, yet I had not tell you the url of this blog. Haha! Do not know why I still never let you know.

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.

Mid Afternoon

2011-01-30T15:08:00.001+08:00

Is 3pm now and is still raining. Trying to download audi but is only 50%. Yawn x.x While waiting for it, I fall asleep.

Feel like going back home but. Mmm... Perhaps just stay here bah. Just now received your msg, Haha. Must have a good sleep uh. You sleep well, jiu can pei me more. :D

Just wan to say to you : IMY

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.

Cold and Sleepy Morning~

2011-01-30T12:37:00.002+08:00

Woke up 9 in the morning just to go down to Grandpa house. I feel so sleepy >< But I had awesome breakfast. :D

Now I am kind of bored. Nothing to do at there. Pray hard that I could download audi on this laptop. Eh. You must be still sleeping bah. Raining weather is a good time to sleep. Dun wish to msg you and disturb your sleep. Past few days, you just slept for a few hours. I worried you will fall sick anytime. Have a good sleep and enough rest.

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.

My First Post~

2011-01-29T22:38:00.001+08:00

My blog finally done! :D Mmm.. Plain and a simple blog.

Do you know, this blog is only for you. Only you can read my mind for everyday. My memories with you will be all here. And this is just a beginning...

You must always stay happy. Because you look pretty and cute when you smile.